Self Talk vs. Godspeak

We all have little voices in our head. Mostly they're are own. :-) We talk to ourselves all day long. I mean, really, have you stopped to think about that? I don't mean the chanting of "a gallon of milk, a loaf of bread and a stick of butter" to help your memory in the grocery store. No, it's different than that. Do you ever say things like, "You idiot. You're so stupid. Why did you do that? You can't do this. You're never going to change!"

I just started homeschooling this week. Ohhh, I've been talkin' to myself a lot lately! I really prayed and asked the Lord for His direction in this. I could never make such a huge decision without the wave of His arm paving the way for me. I'm thankful I received that confirmation and can continue to rely on that even on days I feel like giving up. Yes, I'm only on day 3 and I've already had those thoughts! I hear thoughts like these: "You knew you couldn't do this. You want to be this kind of Mom but you're just not! You'll never have enough patience for this. This is never going to work."

And while it's true that I won't perform as perfectly as I'd like. I can still choose to walk in what I believe God has called me to do and cry out to him when what I'm doing is not enough. I must choose to follow up that negative self talk with a little Godspeak. God doesn't have any of those terrible things to say about me. While He knows that it is true that I may lack patience and self control some days, he still loves me. He has a plan for me. He doesn't give up on me. So maybe I won't give up on me either. I can strive to be the Mom my kids need. And I must realize that that may not look like what the mother next door looks like.

So the next time you're ticking off a list of all your shortcomings, follow it with something God would say about you- that you're fearfully and wonderfully made, that you were bought with a price, that you're the apple of his eye, that he will never leave you nor forsake you.

May His words set you free!